Do, do you have a first aid kit handy?

Last post I was super excited about getting my medical clearance to do rowing. Well...... life happened. I didn't even pass the first part of the examination. The doctor listened to my heart and told me I have a heart murmur and need to get an ultrasound of my heart. He said not to worry about it that murmurs usually don't mean anything and he just needs to check. So, although he said it could be nothing I'm extremely upset and worried. Upset because I have to wait longer to get on the water and row which means: I probably can no longer participate in the first race at Newport. I'm worried because I've never had a heart murmur before. Usually people are born with them. That and I made the mistake of researching heart murmurs and all it did was worry me even more.. sigh.

So now I get to play the waiting game until my ultrasound and EKG on Monday.. at 3pm. My week already feels like it's going by so slow. I've been trying very hard to keep my mind off of it but, damn, it's hard.

Fun/creepy fact:
The night before I found out about it I had an odd dream. I had a dream I was going to get a lethal injection. It was put in prison for something I didn't do and was going to get executed. I woke up about 4 times and every time I would go back to sleep my dream would continue right where it left off. Worst nightmare I've ever had.

Justin said jokingly " maybe it was a memory from one of your past lives"

Ernesto said " Maybe it was foreshadowing about you finding out about your heart. Your heart murmur is your lethal injection, and it's not like you asked for it on purpose, just like being imprisoned on false terms."

either way.. it was a creepy dream, and the timing is something to find a little ironic.

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sigh... this is gonna feel like FOREVER!!!!!

Hopefully I'm gonna look back on this on Monday and laugh at how worried I was over nothing. I can't help to think about the worst. It's lingering in the back of my mind and it wont go away.

so. Do , do you have a first aid kit handy.. 'cause my heart is damaged.. haha

hey who says I can't take this comically. :D Maybe joking about it will make me feel better. I have been and it seems to be working a little.