We set the wrong course

I've been extremely moody lately. I have way too much on my mind and I'm so busy. I'm tired. I can't stop thinking about the worst. I've been feeling like poo, but I think it's because I'm getting sick. I have a sore throat today and a terrible headache. Art History was so lame today. We had a TA perform today's lecture. He was such a douche. My room mate is gone for the weekend again. THANK GOD. I have work on Saturday from 1-8 (lame) and I'm going to go and protest against prop. 8 on Sunday!

I just want to go home.

I'm so tired. I'm so scared.

I don't know what to do about this person. Friendliness, or interest; it's the age old question. I wish I could practice what I preach. I'm so scared though. I'm so naive.

I don't like the hole I've dug for myself. So days I'm so self hating it's unhealthy. I'm such a train wreck. It's okay though. I think I would not enjoy life so much if it was any less exciting. I think I just like to complain.

Monday is 3 days away! I can't wait. It's killing me. I'm sure this weekend will just fly by though! Well, that's what I'm hoping.

I can't believe how you sneaked up on me. I like how I said I was over it, and realized it was a complete lie to myself.

I can't believe I like someone as good as you. You make me feel like myself. You make me feel like it's okay to be a little silly. You are so bold. So confident. I really like though traits. I want to aspire to be more like you. You are so well put together. You are my opposite. You seem structured. While I feel chaotic. These are the things I see. I'm so attracted to you, but I can't help but feel you are not to me. That's my self conscious side getting the best of me though.

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I can't have an S.O. right now. I can't be the best boyfriend for anyone right now. I like you so much though. Should I go for it? I'll always regret not jumping if I don't. I hate how I know what I should do, but I'm being difficult by not doing so. I'll be so much more happy. I think I thrive on chaos.